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 in response to kentuckylady63...   I despise cancer with all of my being.. It took my grandmother, is currently trying to take my grandfather and my mother has polyps but we're lucky enough at this point that they are benign.. I've known a lot of good friends who have lost people to cancer that seemingly would have been here for ages had it not been for it. I am always thankful for memories, no doubt. "We do not remember days, we remember moments." has always rang so true in a number of ways for me.. I agree with what you say completely, I had to learn to be more positive, and sometimes I just can't do it and feel like I'll have a meltdown, and then I stop and try to breathe because I know it wouldn't do my son any good and I'm literally all that he has.. It's not that no one else wants to spend time with him on my side of his family, just that they can't, so when I make a decision or action I always attempt to think of him and his feelings before anything, for only being just under two it's unbelievable what he has taught me... Patience, a lot of understanding and love that I'd never be able to find elsewhere.. You very welcome, I have enjoyed this conversation much..Loved ones are what matter most, they are the people who make you smile when no one else can, the least likely to judge you through your hardships and as I've learned time and time again the ones who will come running when you need them.. I still don't know what it is your husband is dealing with medically, but I will focus hope immensely that it improves enough for you two to have many happy and enjoyable days together..

 in response to kriss L...   You are welcome. I know cancer is tough especially watching a loved one have but make the most memories that you can and you will be thankful you have those. It is hard to be positive in this world today...My family will tell you that I am not a positive person but I try to be. No matter what any of us are going through we have to hope and think there is a reason for everything even though we dont understand it but things have to get better...Dont give up hope. Thanks for your kind words as well. Its hard losing a home but its just a home and it can be replaced but my husband cant so I have changed my way of thinking and am glad I have him and no matter what material things I lose I still have him and he is what matters most!!

 in response to brokenlady63...   I try to be as optimistic as I possibly can be.. I know it's rough, but I also know bad feelings don't make an already rough situation any better, so I make the attempt to be positive constantly... Sometimes it's harder than others, sometimes it's darn near impossible.. I'm so sorry to hear about your home, I can't imagine what it would be like to have a lifetime of memories somewhere that may be taken from you.. I have spent most of my life moving so I never really experienced a home life until just recently.. It's a shame that bad things seem to happen to good people.. I'll never understand it.. but I know it happens and it's up to each individual to find a way to live and work through it.. I hope things get better, maybe sometime we will both be lucky enough to see when it does :) I also hope for your husbands health, and that every day you two spend together are good ones.. I know my grandfather and I were estranged for a while, mostly because it was painful for me to visit once my grandmother passed, but my relationship with him has become better, only in time for me to find out he has stage 4 prostate cancer that he refuses at this point to treat.. Even if it's some time, it's better now than later and I'm grateful for the time I have with him.. I hope the same for you two.. Thank you for taking the time to send some kind words and thoughts my way.. before I came across this site it had been a bit before I had seen so many people trying to be positive to one another.

Life is hard...I dont know your problems but I am having problems too. Its rough especially when there seems like no hope. I am losing my home and everything because my husband went downhill fast and is now disabled. I wanted to blame God but God is all I had to turn to. I prayed and prayed and my husband is still alive and we made it through the past year but still facing foreclosure amongst other things. I feel for you but just hang in there..thats all I know to tell ya. I wanted to give up many times and take my own life but I knew I couldnt cause I have family that I love dearly and they need me as much as I need them. Sometimes I felt alone but I wasnt....God was there. Life is still tuff and I dont know whats gonna happen but I have to believe and I have to have hope that something good will happen. Hang in there!!!